Can I cry a little now?

As per my Facebook post I met with my GI doctor today. After reviewing the test results he said that there are some definite issues. However, he feels strongly that having hernia repair surgery would be detrimental to my health. He said that although I have a hiatal hernia the worse problem is with the esophagus itself. He said a medical term that I don't remember, but said in layman's terms I have a sleepy esophagus. He said that instead of working as the food works its way down it only works a small portion of the time. This is causing the food to back up and causes the pain. There's really nothing that can be done to treat that. With all the advances of modern medicine there's not a pill or a medical treatment that has been developed to treat it. He said that the only thing I can really do is go on a soft food diet. This means that eating is not going to be fun or enjoyable any more.
When I met with my doctor and dietitian to start losing the weight they gave me foods that I should eat to lose weight... lean meats, green veggies, some fruit, cut out most starches and sugars most of the time and that sort of thing. They both strongly encouraged me to eat fish. I told them that while I truly appreciate that fish is good for you I do not like fish. I've tried it several times over the years, and almost always when they have a sample at Costco I try it. It's just totally disgusting to me in flavor, smell and texture, so that left chicken and turkey as suitable lean meats. However, both turkey and chicken are not on this new diet unless they're ground up. Turkey I can handle, but I don't think I've ever even seen ground chicken. My GI doctor said that I am also supposed to start taking a drink of water every single time I take a bite. This is exactly opposite of what the dietitian told me to do. She said that I shouldn't drink for 20-30 minutes so that the food would stay in my stomach longer so that I would feel full longer... thereby not being hungry as often. That was working for me. Now the GI doctor is telling me to do the exact opposite. He said that if my body was working properly that this would be a good idea. However, if I want to be able to swallow and get the food to go down I have to start drinking with my meals again. He assured me that if I drink water that I won't make the food pass too quickly. If I have drinks with bubbles (soda- and if I drank, then alcohol with bubbles) will make the food pass through more quickly.
I truly hope he's right. My weight has been stuck at about the same weight for a while and I've been getting discouraged. I truly hope that making these changes will help. I can't stop eating, and I don't want to regain the weight I've already lost. I hope that I'll be able to incorporate these changes in my life, and that I'll be able to eat and drink again without having my food get stuck. It's painful and scary. If this works I'll be thrilled, and hopefully, thinner.
Anyway, I had a couple of dreams this week that the doctor who performed the test and said that I'd have to have the surgery was wrong. And I dreamed that my GI doctor would say about what he said. I'll admit to being somewhat discouraged by this even though I suspected he would say this. C'est la vie.